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A lot of pet crematoriums have gone under in the pandemic. thats pretty sad. i only had a handful of choices, as opposed to a lot more about a year ago when Skittles passed.
Calling the crematorium to get pricing was so hard, hearing just about choices for her poor little body. doing this ahead of time is so much easier because you can be more level headed about it. having to do this now that she's no longer with me is so sad and hard. and i feel pretty useless.
I wasn't ready to give her body up today. I thought I would be. But I can't. I'm not ready. I know I have to say good bye, but I am going to plan for tomorrow morning.
the cats all seem to be grieving a little, but Biggie the most. He was legitimately interested in her corpse, and has gone up to her a few times. Blue has sniffed her, and won't leave the cooler's side. I don't know if he just likes the fact that the outside of it is cold, or if he wants to guard her body (he did the same for Skittles in her last days, but I am probably projecting)
Poor Pepper's body was in a sun beam. She would have loved that. But it was making her body too warm and I had to move her out of the sunbeam. Its just all very sad.
Calling the crematorium to get pricing was so hard, hearing just about choices for her poor little body. doing this ahead of time is so much easier because you can be more level headed about it. having to do this now that she's no longer with me is so sad and hard. and i feel pretty useless.
I wasn't ready to give her body up today. I thought I would be. But I can't. I'm not ready. I know I have to say good bye, but I am going to plan for tomorrow morning.
the cats all seem to be grieving a little, but Biggie the most. He was legitimately interested in her corpse, and has gone up to her a few times. Blue has sniffed her, and won't leave the cooler's side. I don't know if he just likes the fact that the outside of it is cold, or if he wants to guard her body (he did the same for Skittles in her last days, but I am probably projecting)
Poor Pepper's body was in a sun beam. She would have loved that. But it was making her body too warm and I had to move her out of the sunbeam. Its just all very sad.
