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Jul. 17th, 2020 08:52 amive had just a vast surplus of anxiety over social media lately.
basically i get bombarded with a lot of images about doing more for BLM, etc. And I try to do what I can but then i feel like it absolutely is never enough.
and like ok so yes i get that usually these "DO MORE" memes come from folks that post 10~18 things a day.
any way, it makes me feel bad about the prospect of even posting anything that isnt social justice related. ive occasionally thought about putting on make up or clothes and taking pictures of myself, especially regarding my birthday, but i feel such an immense guilt that i could be something detracting from BLM that i stop.
this is the only place i feel free to post that im struggling or having a bad time, and honestly im grateful for it, because i barely open up to my friends. its just easier to open up in person and fuck that'll never happen again.
im absolutely petrified to tell people how i feel unless they ask. like, so many of my friends know they can text me to vent, but unless someone extends the "how are you" branch to me, i just bottle everything up. i know my friends dont want me to do that,b ut unless they are asking for it, i just dont want to burden them.
idk im depressed and sad again and my moods are swinging all over the fucking place. i dont even know exactly what is wrong with me. is this general anxiety? is it normal to be depressed when the world is so incredibly fucked? why should i take a selfie when the world is absolutely a tire fire right now?
well, thanks for listening anyway.
basically i get bombarded with a lot of images about doing more for BLM, etc. And I try to do what I can but then i feel like it absolutely is never enough.
and like ok so yes i get that usually these "DO MORE" memes come from folks that post 10~18 things a day.
any way, it makes me feel bad about the prospect of even posting anything that isnt social justice related. ive occasionally thought about putting on make up or clothes and taking pictures of myself, especially regarding my birthday, but i feel such an immense guilt that i could be something detracting from BLM that i stop.
this is the only place i feel free to post that im struggling or having a bad time, and honestly im grateful for it, because i barely open up to my friends. its just easier to open up in person and fuck that'll never happen again.
im absolutely petrified to tell people how i feel unless they ask. like, so many of my friends know they can text me to vent, but unless someone extends the "how are you" branch to me, i just bottle everything up. i know my friends dont want me to do that,b ut unless they are asking for it, i just dont want to burden them.
idk im depressed and sad again and my moods are swinging all over the fucking place. i dont even know exactly what is wrong with me. is this general anxiety? is it normal to be depressed when the world is so incredibly fucked? why should i take a selfie when the world is absolutely a tire fire right now?
well, thanks for listening anyway.
