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I guess I just wanted to put the last 3 days in a time line. because my last two posts have been rambling af.
Monday I wrestled. I almost wondered if I'd have anticipation about it since I had been gone all week. But as I was driving there, I realised I didnt. And I still had dread. And it was an easy class too. just shoulder tackles. and I was even getting /good/ at them. it was progress. but i was still dreading before my turn. and hated it after. i wasnt relieved till class was over.
tuesday i was dreading wednesday. but i went to silks that night and it was good. and there was no dread. and i didnt look at the clock wanting to leave. and i was happy. afterwards i dreaded wednesday more.
wednesday just as the day dragged on i kept dreading wrestling more. i knew i had to stop. i knew i needed to go in and quit. And basically that conversation is played out in the other entry.
All this to say, i definitely knew when I was ready to quit.
Monday I wrestled. I almost wondered if I'd have anticipation about it since I had been gone all week. But as I was driving there, I realised I didnt. And I still had dread. And it was an easy class too. just shoulder tackles. and I was even getting /good/ at them. it was progress. but i was still dreading before my turn. and hated it after. i wasnt relieved till class was over.
tuesday i was dreading wednesday. but i went to silks that night and it was good. and there was no dread. and i didnt look at the clock wanting to leave. and i was happy. afterwards i dreaded wednesday more.
wednesday just as the day dragged on i kept dreading wrestling more. i knew i had to stop. i knew i needed to go in and quit. And basically that conversation is played out in the other entry.
All this to say, i definitely knew when I was ready to quit.
