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[frenzy]

1. What did you do in 2020 that you'd never done before?
Live through a pandemic, mostly.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i'm pretty certain once the pandemic hit, all ideas of being healthy just went out the window. Did I have any other resolutions? Probably not, but the beginning of this year feels like 1000 years ago.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Tessa did.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Lara. Hodge.

5. What countries did you visit?
fucking lol. Before everything hit, I flew to Chicago/Wisconsin which was .. a trip. but since it was because lara was dead, it wasnt exactly a vacation.

6. What would you like to have in 2021 that you lacked in 2020?
friendships, hugs, vacations. touching.

7. What date from 2020 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
maybe the day lara died. maybe the day the NBA ceased games.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
not getting the virus (thus far). uh, i'm working on a fucking cross stitch?

9. What was your biggest failure?
couldnt take care of the house, myself, my mental health. extreme empathy fatigue.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nothing physically. my mental heath really plummeted.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Animal Crossing New horizons.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my husband, maybe, for not leaving me despite my depression

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I mean, a few folks because we're all judging folks for what they do in the pandemic as opposed to blaming the government for failing us with even basic guidelines with what we can/cant do.

14. Where did most of your money go?
idek. living? rent? normal shit? i wasted money on a cross stitch kit but i stuck with it and its almost done.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
a n i m a l c r o s s i n g (i have 700+ hours logged. And probably only 48 of those are AFK)

16. What song will always remind you of 2020?
is there joy to be had from music this year? nostalgia by 90lb wuss.


17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
very sadder.

ii. thinner or fatter?
about 15lbs heavier.

iii. richer or poorer?
about the same.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
boy im starting to sound like a broken record here.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
crying for no reason, i guess. but i couldnt really control it.

20. How did you spend Christmas?
home, alone, listening to music.

21. Did you fall in love in 2020?
i fell more in love with my partner for sticking with me.

22. How many one night stands?
i'm married and generally monogamous. so 0.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
lovecraft country.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nah, i dont think so. i honestly dont hate too many folks. i didnt lose any friendships this year.


26. What was the best book you read?
i answered this in my last post. why dont you go read it.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
bob vylan

28. What did you want and get?
i wanted my partner to continue to stay with me, and i suppose i got that, although it was never really a doubt about that.

29. What did you want and not get?
happiness, mostly. or at least some hormonal boost that feels like it.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
i dont think there was a single movie i loved this year.

31. What did you do on your birthday?
played animal crossing with my friends.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
there not being a fucking pandemic.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2020?
pajama pants.

34. What kept you sane?
animal crossing.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i could barely keep my shit together, yet alone get a crush on someone unobtainable.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
we were all stirred by the issue of racism and police brutality. im still stirred by that. fuck cops. abolish cops.

37. Whom did you miss?
lara.


38. Who was the best new person you met?
i dont really know that i met anyone new. marvis?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2020.
my mental health is a precariously stacked set of jenga blocks that can fall at any moment.

40. BONUS QUESTION: What were your best meals of the year?
probably a cheese board picnic of some kind. maybe sushi. certainly nothing i cooked.

41. Other new question: What are you looking forward to in 2021?
getting vaccinated and being able to touch people again.