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Sorry. I'll update.
Work wanted me in this morning lol. Like, i think my manager was annoyed that I knew i had power but didnt figure out the internet situation. He said he was keeping me in rotation and i needed to work. On the one hand, I was annoyed that this was happening. On the other hand, they legally could have fired me. So I guess I should be grateful.
We don't have water and we dont have gas to boil melt-off nor snow. But we have power. And the brewery has water so we're getting potable water there. The melt off will work for the toilet.
Im trying to stop feeling like im in survival mode. Ive cried a little, but mostly just felt a state of panic incessantly. People now are feeling feelings, mostly of anger, but im trying to feel anything other than panic rn.
The house was chilled to the bone. I have both space heaters up here but i cant say its more than 50 degrees in here. I have an electric kettle, so i can make some tea. I am v cold though and ill be excited for work to be over so i can get under the electric blanket and try to feel what warmth might be again.
Z asked me what i wanted for supper and the place had a full menu and i was so overwhelmed with choice that i couldnt choose. i am so fucking fragile and not OK right now. How do I feel OK again?
We flushed all the fish and Im sad about it. but with the water heater back on i didnt want to make dead fish soup. Now, the aquarium is just a source of toilet water
Im so sad and tired. i thought going home might make things feel normal but i feel just as terrible as i ever have.
Work wanted me in this morning lol. Like, i think my manager was annoyed that I knew i had power but didnt figure out the internet situation. He said he was keeping me in rotation and i needed to work. On the one hand, I was annoyed that this was happening. On the other hand, they legally could have fired me. So I guess I should be grateful.
We don't have water and we dont have gas to boil melt-off nor snow. But we have power. And the brewery has water so we're getting potable water there. The melt off will work for the toilet.
Im trying to stop feeling like im in survival mode. Ive cried a little, but mostly just felt a state of panic incessantly. People now are feeling feelings, mostly of anger, but im trying to feel anything other than panic rn.
The house was chilled to the bone. I have both space heaters up here but i cant say its more than 50 degrees in here. I have an electric kettle, so i can make some tea. I am v cold though and ill be excited for work to be over so i can get under the electric blanket and try to feel what warmth might be again.
Z asked me what i wanted for supper and the place had a full menu and i was so overwhelmed with choice that i couldnt choose. i am so fucking fragile and not OK right now. How do I feel OK again?
We flushed all the fish and Im sad about it. but with the water heater back on i didnt want to make dead fish soup. Now, the aquarium is just a source of toilet water
Im so sad and tired. i thought going home might make things feel normal but i feel just as terrible as i ever have.
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