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buh. i feel like i have a lot to update on.

when i left off, i was heckin depressed.

So starting that thursday, and mostly through tuesday, Z's cousin Kirt was in town with his partner justin. They're both really cool. but we did a bunch of stuff all week and it really threw me off my game. Like, thursday, I'm p sure we went down to Rainey St and went to Craft Pride. Friday, after I got off work, I met up with them at Austin Beerworks and then we went to blackstar. Its nice to do stuff though. but I was also just sort of still wrestling with my dad-induced depression. it was getting worse as the death date approached.

Saturday came and I met up with my dad's friend Todd. We got lunch and we went back to his place and smoked a little and just hung out. I like Todd a whole lot because he's sort of the other side of the coin when it comes to dad. there's the post-jesus dad. and pre-jesus dad. they both have their pros and cons i guess. i was eager to smoke with todd mostly for the experience but also to help with the depression.

after that, we got ice cream and then we went to wrestle circus. man. it was really good. worth the money. they get some really great people from the indies. even though i hadn't heard of anyone (except for tessa blanchard) the skill was just high. people were falling in the stands left and right hahaha. it made me doubt my ability to ever wrestle tbh. but i still had fun.

sunday, well, idk if it was the weed or just the fact that the date had passed, but i felt a lot less depressed. i felt pretty normal tbh. and i still do. Sunday Z and I met with David to get brunch and then they played video games over at the house. After that, Z and I met up with Kirt, Justin, and their friend Austin at Oddwood and then we went to hops n grain. Austin is cool and we traded info so I can invite him to stuff since he's new to austin.

Okay, so I left out some stuff in the normal chronological format, because the thing that has encompassed everything this week has been Skittles and her health. Skittles is my 15.5 year old cat and I love her very much. We took her out to take some pictures last week. And after that day, she puked every day. And had runny poops. and I was really worried about her. She started to puke a little less, but it never stopped so I called the vet.

First, we thought it was thyroid issues, so they did blood work, but everything was fine. So then we decided to do an ultrasound. Well, it turns out she has Irritable Bowel Disease. Who know kitties could even get that. SO, she going on steroid pills daily, getting off the gabapectin, and also has to get a vitamin shot once a week. So this is gonna be "fun". Skittles is notoriously hard to pill, but I guess we'll find a way.

So, I've been a little up and down because of the Skittles stuff, but otherwise good. I doubled down on classes this week because i didnt take any last week (they were all booked. i need to sign up earlier!)

Diet wise, idk, when i was depressed about dad's deathaversary, i just ate without caring, but it didn't affect my weight too much. this week i'm being a bit more mindful, but i've also been really hungry still and I'm still just not in the mood to deny my tummy. I'm sure it'll be fine.

The rest of this week/weekend should be good. Thursday is Miriam's bday thing at easy tiger. Friday I'm doing a passover thing (im not jewish, but its for secular humanists and idk, i miss ritual. this scratches that itch) saturday shane should be in town and we're doing doom metal goat yoga at jester king. should be fun.

but yeah, i'm still feeling better about dad stuff. and im feeling hopeful about skittles. we'll see if she still pukes or not. poor baby.