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Oct. 31st, 2018 07:05 pmUgh. I've been hormonal and moody. Especially yesterday and today. But here I am.
Friday I didn't do anything. Z worked and I didn't have the foresight to make plans. I live close to downtown, so I thought about going to a bar or something but kept being like eeeehhhhhh and then doing nothing except watching anime. It really worked me into a shitty mood. Like its friday night and im watching shonen anime like I'm still living in Chicago and I'm still a loser and blahblahblah. The point is, no matter how shitty I felt, I also didn't do anything to change my feelings, which is equally frustrating. So I just went between wallowing in it and pacifying it with more My Hero Academia.
Saturday Z and I met up with Mark at Pinthouse and then meandered to ABGB. It was p fun. His wife and kids were at ABGB too. Good kids. I like them both. V reminds me a lot of me when I was a kid. Big reader. I was happy to hear she had read Matilda.
After that, we went home to get ready for Aaron and Aly's halloween party. We had a lot of fun. I was Strong Bad which was something I had wanted to do for a long time now. I pulled it off pretty all right. It was my first time wearing a binder around my husband or, like, anyone in public and I felt p good. The tank top binders work a lot better than the half-shirt types, imo. At any rate, it was a great party and I didnt feel like I got too drunk. At the end of the night I took out my contacts and even read and remembered what I read. But my body decided I had alcohol poisoning because I got up a few hours later to puke. I fucking hate puking.
Sunday we just Took. It. Easy. We watched football, and I am so beyond angry at the Packers game. We were basically about to beat the fucking Rams until Ty Montgomery fucked that up. Fuck him! He got traded to the Ravens for basically the price of the sandwich and good riddance tbqh. We should have won that game and its gonna haunt us in the coming weeks. I just know it.
Oh and we watched the Women's PPV too. So, no spoilers but the Becky/Charlotte match was amazing, brutal, and ended perfectly. The whole PPV was p good even though it felt like a consolation prize for all the other fuckery going on with the WWE. Did y'all just hear that racist ass hulk hogan is gonna be at their shitty ass PPV in Saudi Arabia? yikes x 2. or 2 million, really.
Sunday my eye hurt real bad. I put saline it in a couple times and it was the worst pain known to man. I thought maybe i had scratched my eye but I sort of figured if I slept that night I'd be okay.
Well after wrestling I slept and man my eye was just as bad when I woke up. It was so bad I went to the doc-in-the-box. They were like "oh fuck son. Go to a real eye doc" so my real eye doc penciled me in. She said it was very gruesome and "looked like sandpaper". I have no clue how i hurt my eye that badly. That Monday I got some prescription eye drops. Putting those fuckers in the first time was a new kind of pain. Honestly this whole scenario has been some of the worst physical pain I may have ever experienced. The eye doc had me come back on Tuesday, to make sure my eye was healing and even in 24 hours it was looking and feeling much better.
So this is day 3 on drops and my vision in that eye is returning. Its still a little blurred. and if I strain, it hurts. but the doc says it'll be okay. I go back on Monday to check and make sure its healing well.
Oh Monday I went and voted. I havent voted in a v long time. Mostly in protest. But as I see voter disenfranchisement becoming a thing, it clearly, like, you know. its something. I dont think the revolution will happen through voting. but im mostly voting to keep republicans out of power i guess. oh well. i did it. i could write an entire entry on this. I feel weird. Younger me is mad at me. Older me is almost proud, but still dirty feeling. Still I want me, and all my enby and trans friends to exist.
Blue goes back to the vet next week. Dude has had diarrhea non stop again. I upped the anti-diarrhea meds thinking itd even out but it never has. *sigh* Skittles may have some too but its hard to tell with Blue also having poo probs. So one thing at a time.
I skipped silks class two times this week. Saturday because of all the partying and Tuesday because my eye was garbage. :( I hate cancelling and it makes me feel like a quitter. tbh ive slacked on exercising and also im gaining weight from eating all this processed pumpkin junk. lol. Ill be happy when im done with pumpkin things.
I did my PPT video today as strong bad and tbh im a little sad more people weren't jazzed about it. Oh well. Can't win em all.
Idk whats going on this weekend. I might see Debbie Sunday. Idk if Z will or won't go or not. We'll see. Saturday I think Ill go to 4th taps anniversary party while Z works at the brewery. Does he work Friday? If he does, I should find something to do to prevent a repeat of this Friday.
Thats everything, for now.
Friday I didn't do anything. Z worked and I didn't have the foresight to make plans. I live close to downtown, so I thought about going to a bar or something but kept being like eeeehhhhhh and then doing nothing except watching anime. It really worked me into a shitty mood. Like its friday night and im watching shonen anime like I'm still living in Chicago and I'm still a loser and blahblahblah. The point is, no matter how shitty I felt, I also didn't do anything to change my feelings, which is equally frustrating. So I just went between wallowing in it and pacifying it with more My Hero Academia.
Saturday Z and I met up with Mark at Pinthouse and then meandered to ABGB. It was p fun. His wife and kids were at ABGB too. Good kids. I like them both. V reminds me a lot of me when I was a kid. Big reader. I was happy to hear she had read Matilda.
After that, we went home to get ready for Aaron and Aly's halloween party. We had a lot of fun. I was Strong Bad which was something I had wanted to do for a long time now. I pulled it off pretty all right. It was my first time wearing a binder around my husband or, like, anyone in public and I felt p good. The tank top binders work a lot better than the half-shirt types, imo. At any rate, it was a great party and I didnt feel like I got too drunk. At the end of the night I took out my contacts and even read and remembered what I read. But my body decided I had alcohol poisoning because I got up a few hours later to puke. I fucking hate puking.
Sunday we just Took. It. Easy. We watched football, and I am so beyond angry at the Packers game. We were basically about to beat the fucking Rams until Ty Montgomery fucked that up. Fuck him! He got traded to the Ravens for basically the price of the sandwich and good riddance tbqh. We should have won that game and its gonna haunt us in the coming weeks. I just know it.
Oh and we watched the Women's PPV too. So, no spoilers but the Becky/Charlotte match was amazing, brutal, and ended perfectly. The whole PPV was p good even though it felt like a consolation prize for all the other fuckery going on with the WWE. Did y'all just hear that racist ass hulk hogan is gonna be at their shitty ass PPV in Saudi Arabia? yikes x 2. or 2 million, really.
Sunday my eye hurt real bad. I put saline it in a couple times and it was the worst pain known to man. I thought maybe i had scratched my eye but I sort of figured if I slept that night I'd be okay.
Well after wrestling I slept and man my eye was just as bad when I woke up. It was so bad I went to the doc-in-the-box. They were like "oh fuck son. Go to a real eye doc" so my real eye doc penciled me in. She said it was very gruesome and "looked like sandpaper". I have no clue how i hurt my eye that badly. That Monday I got some prescription eye drops. Putting those fuckers in the first time was a new kind of pain. Honestly this whole scenario has been some of the worst physical pain I may have ever experienced. The eye doc had me come back on Tuesday, to make sure my eye was healing and even in 24 hours it was looking and feeling much better.
So this is day 3 on drops and my vision in that eye is returning. Its still a little blurred. and if I strain, it hurts. but the doc says it'll be okay. I go back on Monday to check and make sure its healing well.
Oh Monday I went and voted. I havent voted in a v long time. Mostly in protest. But as I see voter disenfranchisement becoming a thing, it clearly, like, you know. its something. I dont think the revolution will happen through voting. but im mostly voting to keep republicans out of power i guess. oh well. i did it. i could write an entire entry on this. I feel weird. Younger me is mad at me. Older me is almost proud, but still dirty feeling. Still I want me, and all my enby and trans friends to exist.
Blue goes back to the vet next week. Dude has had diarrhea non stop again. I upped the anti-diarrhea meds thinking itd even out but it never has. *sigh* Skittles may have some too but its hard to tell with Blue also having poo probs. So one thing at a time.
I skipped silks class two times this week. Saturday because of all the partying and Tuesday because my eye was garbage. :( I hate cancelling and it makes me feel like a quitter. tbh ive slacked on exercising and also im gaining weight from eating all this processed pumpkin junk. lol. Ill be happy when im done with pumpkin things.
I did my PPT video today as strong bad and tbh im a little sad more people weren't jazzed about it. Oh well. Can't win em all.
Idk whats going on this weekend. I might see Debbie Sunday. Idk if Z will or won't go or not. We'll see. Saturday I think Ill go to 4th taps anniversary party while Z works at the brewery. Does he work Friday? If he does, I should find something to do to prevent a repeat of this Friday.
Thats everything, for now.
