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Nov. 1st, 2018 07:49 pmA few things I forgot to write about. Both of them worth writing about.
I failed to mention that Z and I got in a fight on Tuesday. I was being passive aggressive because he's not always the best help with chores. Especially since when he moved to the day job he said he would but instead doesnt still. I kept telling him to not play vidya games till /after/ chores. its not hard. its generally how I live my life (or 1 hour gaming, 1 hour chores, repeat). But yeah, we started just nit picking at each other. he said he wanted me to leave him alone when he got home and it really made me sad. I work from home and I'm lonely all day. I'm happy when he finally comes home. It was sad to hear it wasnt the same. He said it wasn't like that, but I feel like there's a bit of truth there. He can't decompress because i can't stop talking. I dunno. Eventually it settled down and he said he'd help with chores more. he didn't really have anything he really needed from me. i still feel down about it. i know i was being hormonal. and still am. and i just worry i annoy him. I am generally very annoying.
Last night Z told me Landon, the transphobe 'friend' who got into a fight with me on the internet a week or two back, will be in town and they wanna get dinner Monday night. I have saved up a ton of trans* stuff links and idk if i should give them to him and try to have a discussion or ignore him and hope he goes away quickly. Im pretty mad at him and hes still a fucking transphobe. sooooooo idk. im hovering between trying to talk and not. Z didnt ask me if I wanted to go, i think he just assumes i hate landon. and i kind of do. and maybe Z can talk some sense into him. still i dont want to rely on him to fight my battles. still, why should i care? i think i have been so angry about it because i feel legitimately betrayed. and landon is mad at me because one of my friends 'joked' about killing his kid, which yes, was out of line. but being transphobic is also out of line so aaaaaargh. idk what to do. what do you think, dw?
I failed to mention that Z and I got in a fight on Tuesday. I was being passive aggressive because he's not always the best help with chores. Especially since when he moved to the day job he said he would but instead doesnt still. I kept telling him to not play vidya games till /after/ chores. its not hard. its generally how I live my life (or 1 hour gaming, 1 hour chores, repeat). But yeah, we started just nit picking at each other. he said he wanted me to leave him alone when he got home and it really made me sad. I work from home and I'm lonely all day. I'm happy when he finally comes home. It was sad to hear it wasnt the same. He said it wasn't like that, but I feel like there's a bit of truth there. He can't decompress because i can't stop talking. I dunno. Eventually it settled down and he said he'd help with chores more. he didn't really have anything he really needed from me. i still feel down about it. i know i was being hormonal. and still am. and i just worry i annoy him. I am generally very annoying.
Last night Z told me Landon, the transphobe 'friend' who got into a fight with me on the internet a week or two back, will be in town and they wanna get dinner Monday night. I have saved up a ton of trans* stuff links and idk if i should give them to him and try to have a discussion or ignore him and hope he goes away quickly. Im pretty mad at him and hes still a fucking transphobe. sooooooo idk. im hovering between trying to talk and not. Z didnt ask me if I wanted to go, i think he just assumes i hate landon. and i kind of do. and maybe Z can talk some sense into him. still i dont want to rely on him to fight my battles. still, why should i care? i think i have been so angry about it because i feel legitimately betrayed. and landon is mad at me because one of my friends 'joked' about killing his kid, which yes, was out of line. but being transphobic is also out of line so aaaaaargh. idk what to do. what do you think, dw?
