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Jan. 10th, 2019 08:00 pmHey DW
I'm grumpy and ragging and all I wanted to do was play stardew valley (finally) and instead, XBL has decided I don't own the fking game. Whatever. I needed to update you anyway.
Lets see. This is my first week doing 3 days of wrestling, on top of silks. I'm starting to be less sore. Like my body is kind of adjusting. That said, I got my period and yesterday I was frustrated because, like, it felt like I was regressing in my bumps. Ill be okay. Just annoying I guess. But otherwise, we've been doing headlock take-downs which are a LOT of fun. Like, to give and take. I was really scared to do it at first, but after I did it, I was hooked (put that on my grave. its like my M.O.)
Silks is going okay too. But I'm a lot more sore, so I can do even less than before. I don't know that it matters much, exactly, but idk. There's a part of me that wonders if I'll give up silks when the gym membership is up. Or maybe I'll decide wrestling isn't exactly my forte in a year. i dont know. Why do I feel compelled to keep thinking about this? It doens't even matter right now.
This shit takes up just a ton of my free time now tho. So idk. At any rate, Saturday I did silks and then had one of my wrestle pals, Robby, meet up with me at the brewery for a beer. We played mario kart and talked about the donkey kong family tree. Its nice to be making new friends.
After that, Z and I went out to Cory's for his birthday. We got around to talking about sports, which I guess Cory doesn't like. He was like "oh sports just placate the masses" but im like "yeah well so does" and hes like " no thats just mindless entertainment" and im like LITERALLY ARENT THE TWO THE SAME THING? Idk. I legit got offended when he told me pro wrestling (the predetermined kind, not the, uh, Olympic kind) isn't a sport. Bustin my ass tryin to make kids think I actually took a clothesline, covered in fuckin bruises, but sure, yeah buddy, not a sport. lol. welcome to the industry, me! Other than that, though, it was a good night.
Sunday was just relaxin and football. Texans lost, but Cowboys won so I guess I'm rooting for the 'Boys now, but mostly for Z's sake. Bears lost in HEARTBREAKING FASHION and god it was SO GOOD cuz the bears still suck.
Oh the cats. So they finished their meds, which made them sleepy and not too hungry. But now the parasite is gone and we have solid poops! So now I'm hoping they get their appetite back. Skittles still is feeling crummy, shaky, and not too hungry. Blue seems basically back to normal. I hope they're both okay. They go back to the vet in 2 weeks and hopefully that'll be the end of NINE MONTHS TRYING TO SOLVE THEIR DAMN DIARRHEA. I just want to see Skittles eat more, mostly.
Yesterday I was just sensitive and testy. I need to get a car, but I still haven't. My landlord, actually offered me one of his if I would basically be the landlord of the property. I just, its a good deal, but i 100% do not have the time at all. So I declined. I, for some reason, felt terrible saying no. But, like, I fucking shouldn't.
But Z and I are a little rocky because of the car situation. he hates having to have me drop him off, or him picking me up, or any of those things. And I don't blame him. Hopefully I'll have one soon. But yeah there's friction there.
And the brewery isn't doing well which has put Z in a bad mood too. They can't really afford to do the IPAs they want to do because hops are expensive. Its just crummy all around. They seem to be just circling the drain and its a matter of time before the brewery closes. Z feels dumb for leaving tech for the brewery. But he hated his tech support job. Maybe he can go to another brewery after this one, or take his management experience at least.
Andrea came by to get her money for taking care of the cats over christmas. chris, my ex, came up in conversation, and god it sent me to a bad place. talking about him, his substance abuse problems, it makes me feel 100% terrible. And i guess even though he cooled the drinking after having a seizure from alcohol withdrawals, i guess he does still drink. and smokes weed all the time. and apparently now he still has seizures just from getting stressed out or, just, like normal seizures. he doesnt seem like the same person i dated. maybe because of the seizures? whatever happened to him, idk/idc. i hope the best for him. thats all i can do. just made me kind of sad(?) to hear? but also stirred a pot from A Very Bad Time In My Life that, well, that pot can't really be stirred and honestly, like, i would need a serious therapist to really parse some of the things there. But I also can move through it too. But I also don't care to dwell on it much. Its been 5 and a half years and i'm still just like, yeah, lets not investigate /those/ hurts.
Well, enough of all that. That's basically all I got. Today is, like, my one off day and I can't play the one video game i wanted to play so I guess I'll go read. Or maybe clean the bathroom but ugh i don't wanna.
I'm grumpy and ragging and all I wanted to do was play stardew valley (finally) and instead, XBL has decided I don't own the fking game. Whatever. I needed to update you anyway.
Lets see. This is my first week doing 3 days of wrestling, on top of silks. I'm starting to be less sore. Like my body is kind of adjusting. That said, I got my period and yesterday I was frustrated because, like, it felt like I was regressing in my bumps. Ill be okay. Just annoying I guess. But otherwise, we've been doing headlock take-downs which are a LOT of fun. Like, to give and take. I was really scared to do it at first, but after I did it, I was hooked (put that on my grave. its like my M.O.)
Silks is going okay too. But I'm a lot more sore, so I can do even less than before. I don't know that it matters much, exactly, but idk. There's a part of me that wonders if I'll give up silks when the gym membership is up. Or maybe I'll decide wrestling isn't exactly my forte in a year. i dont know. Why do I feel compelled to keep thinking about this? It doens't even matter right now.
This shit takes up just a ton of my free time now tho. So idk. At any rate, Saturday I did silks and then had one of my wrestle pals, Robby, meet up with me at the brewery for a beer. We played mario kart and talked about the donkey kong family tree. Its nice to be making new friends.
After that, Z and I went out to Cory's for his birthday. We got around to talking about sports, which I guess Cory doesn't like. He was like "oh sports just placate the masses" but im like "yeah well so does
Sunday was just relaxin and football. Texans lost, but Cowboys won so I guess I'm rooting for the 'Boys now, but mostly for Z's sake. Bears lost in HEARTBREAKING FASHION and god it was SO GOOD cuz the bears still suck.
Oh the cats. So they finished their meds, which made them sleepy and not too hungry. But now the parasite is gone and we have solid poops! So now I'm hoping they get their appetite back. Skittles still is feeling crummy, shaky, and not too hungry. Blue seems basically back to normal. I hope they're both okay. They go back to the vet in 2 weeks and hopefully that'll be the end of NINE MONTHS TRYING TO SOLVE THEIR DAMN DIARRHEA. I just want to see Skittles eat more, mostly.
Yesterday I was just sensitive and testy. I need to get a car, but I still haven't. My landlord, actually offered me one of his if I would basically be the landlord of the property. I just, its a good deal, but i 100% do not have the time at all. So I declined. I, for some reason, felt terrible saying no. But, like, I fucking shouldn't.
But Z and I are a little rocky because of the car situation. he hates having to have me drop him off, or him picking me up, or any of those things. And I don't blame him. Hopefully I'll have one soon. But yeah there's friction there.
And the brewery isn't doing well which has put Z in a bad mood too. They can't really afford to do the IPAs they want to do because hops are expensive. Its just crummy all around. They seem to be just circling the drain and its a matter of time before the brewery closes. Z feels dumb for leaving tech for the brewery. But he hated his tech support job. Maybe he can go to another brewery after this one, or take his management experience at least.
Andrea came by to get her money for taking care of the cats over christmas. chris, my ex, came up in conversation, and god it sent me to a bad place. talking about him, his substance abuse problems, it makes me feel 100% terrible. And i guess even though he cooled the drinking after having a seizure from alcohol withdrawals, i guess he does still drink. and smokes weed all the time. and apparently now he still has seizures just from getting stressed out or, just, like normal seizures. he doesnt seem like the same person i dated. maybe because of the seizures? whatever happened to him, idk/idc. i hope the best for him. thats all i can do. just made me kind of sad(?) to hear? but also stirred a pot from A Very Bad Time In My Life that, well, that pot can't really be stirred and honestly, like, i would need a serious therapist to really parse some of the things there. But I also can move through it too. But I also don't care to dwell on it much. Its been 5 and a half years and i'm still just like, yeah, lets not investigate /those/ hurts.
Well, enough of all that. That's basically all I got. Today is, like, my one off day and I can't play the one video game i wanted to play so I guess I'll go read. Or maybe clean the bathroom but ugh i don't wanna.
