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Mar. 14th, 2019 07:06 pmHey,
Ugh work was annoying today. Just couldn't quite focus. Work has been slowing down a little, but also since theyre not hiring anyone else, super annoying. idk.
Ugh sorry i dont know where to start on this.
Okay Z left yesterday to go to Amarillo for a long weekend. He drove through a pretty vicious dust storm. semis were toppled over! they still didnt have power at the house this morning. But they're going camping anyway so i guess it doesnt rain on their plans too much. he'll be back Sunday. I have the house to myself.
Wrestling is.. okay? So I'm still doing the international drill and im crying less, so I'd say its going better, although i still suck. and pops still thinks im scared of stuff, and i'm sure he's right because 1) hes been doing this forever. he knows best. and 2) im literally always scared of everything. yesterday night he was talking about doing top rope shit with me to break my fear. i was crying just thinking about it. i imagine when that class comes, it will either make or break me. many students said it helped them a ton. so clearly. its like. that'll be... like, it i guess. hah. but i don't cry doing the international anymore, so I feel better about some stuff. although while its happening i just wish for it to be over, which really is a bad sign. maybe im just meant to be a fan. i am happiest watching everyone else. i dont know. im not ready to give up yet.
then monday there was a bunch of beginners and we got to go back to beginner stuff which was great because all my fundamentals are bad anyway. then of course wednesday... no beginners cept me and alicia. ugh. so back to the furnace. grind grind grind. hard work pays off. etc etc.
sorry weight stuff so CW i guess
i gained a bunch of weight because post-wrestling im like real fucking hungry after class and then eat too much. im at 145, which yeah, is not bad at all, but i wanna cut that 10 lbs down because some of my pants and stuff cant fit me anymore. id be happier going down 15 but i dont even know that its obtainable. but i really need to get serious about at least cutting the 10.
ugh im supposed to do my taxes this weekend or something? uuuuugh i dont want to.
cats! blue's health has been good still. so yay on that. they both sort of get loose poops but then it evens out again. never enough for me to be too concerned. Uh, Skittles ringworm came back, tho so now /she/ has lime sulfur baths and she smells terrible. UUuuuuugh.
saturday i saw zeal and ardor, deafheaven, and baroness. it was a really good show. i was most excited about zeal and ardor. and i liked the bands in the order they came in, although zeal and ardor and deafheaven were about tied.
sunday all we did was watch wrestling, and while the ppv was p lame, i got a 100% in our prediction league. my first! I was p proud even tho it was kind of a garbage ppv to guess perfectly.
well, thats about everything. im ready to get off the computer and just play stardew valley all night. no taxes tonight. cya.
Ugh work was annoying today. Just couldn't quite focus. Work has been slowing down a little, but also since theyre not hiring anyone else, super annoying. idk.
Ugh sorry i dont know where to start on this.
Okay Z left yesterday to go to Amarillo for a long weekend. He drove through a pretty vicious dust storm. semis were toppled over! they still didnt have power at the house this morning. But they're going camping anyway so i guess it doesnt rain on their plans too much. he'll be back Sunday. I have the house to myself.
Wrestling is.. okay? So I'm still doing the international drill and im crying less, so I'd say its going better, although i still suck. and pops still thinks im scared of stuff, and i'm sure he's right because 1) hes been doing this forever. he knows best. and 2) im literally always scared of everything. yesterday night he was talking about doing top rope shit with me to break my fear. i was crying just thinking about it. i imagine when that class comes, it will either make or break me. many students said it helped them a ton. so clearly. its like. that'll be... like, it i guess. hah. but i don't cry doing the international anymore, so I feel better about some stuff. although while its happening i just wish for it to be over, which really is a bad sign. maybe im just meant to be a fan. i am happiest watching everyone else. i dont know. im not ready to give up yet.
then monday there was a bunch of beginners and we got to go back to beginner stuff which was great because all my fundamentals are bad anyway. then of course wednesday... no beginners cept me and alicia. ugh. so back to the furnace. grind grind grind. hard work pays off. etc etc.
sorry weight stuff so CW i guess
i gained a bunch of weight because post-wrestling im like real fucking hungry after class and then eat too much. im at 145, which yeah, is not bad at all, but i wanna cut that 10 lbs down because some of my pants and stuff cant fit me anymore. id be happier going down 15 but i dont even know that its obtainable. but i really need to get serious about at least cutting the 10.
ugh im supposed to do my taxes this weekend or something? uuuuugh i dont want to.
cats! blue's health has been good still. so yay on that. they both sort of get loose poops but then it evens out again. never enough for me to be too concerned. Uh, Skittles ringworm came back, tho so now /she/ has lime sulfur baths and she smells terrible. UUuuuuugh.
saturday i saw zeal and ardor, deafheaven, and baroness. it was a really good show. i was most excited about zeal and ardor. and i liked the bands in the order they came in, although zeal and ardor and deafheaven were about tied.
sunday all we did was watch wrestling, and while the ppv was p lame, i got a 100% in our prediction league. my first! I was p proud even tho it was kind of a garbage ppv to guess perfectly.
well, thats about everything. im ready to get off the computer and just play stardew valley all night. no taxes tonight. cya.
