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Dec. 17th, 2019 10:51 pmHey. I've wanted to update the last couple of days but things kept happening and adding up and I never had a second to just, like, sit and chill.
Friday night Cecilia had a birthday thing a the brewery her husband works at. I came later in the evening and stayed for a few hours. It was really low key which was perfect because I've been easily over stimulated lately. So I had a beer and we caught up. I was only out till 9. I think that night Z and I just watched wrestling or avatar or something.
Saturday was much more busy. I had silks, as I do every saturday morning, which was a sub, but it was nice to learn some new sequences, or at least an older sequence I hadn't done in a while and, like, in a different order.
Afterward, I met Jay at my place. Okay, so my computer I'm working on... I couldn't get windows to boot from the flash drive no matter what I did. I tried other flash drives... I tried anything. Eventually I gave up and started just asking around. Jay had a drive with windows on it and it worked flawlessly. So yeah they let me borrow the drive, but as soon as I got the drive, instead of getting to work on my computer, I had to run some errands.
I ran to the eye place to drop off my un-used contacts to get them bought back (or credit or /something/). And then I ran to bookpeople to buy Z's xmas present. Z was still at his brewery, but I really didnt want a beer, so I headed to a craft fair my cousin was at. I bought some xmas presents from him too so I'm basically mostly squared away at this point. Z met me there but then we went together to /another/ brewery for Colt's birthday. A band was playing at the brewery that he really wanted to see. It was really loud so it was really hard to socialize. At least I had ear plugs but man it was really rough and honestly I was already exhausted and overstimulated. But it was only for a few hours and then we went home. It felt really good to be home that night.
Sunday I finally got to work on my computer. All day. And it was really nice to pour myself into it. Got Windows 10 installed. I have never used it and its a little wonky but not too hard as long as google can help lol. But the next part was fucking Linux. And fucking again, my flash drive is NOT working. wtf. But unlike wintows, at least it tells me the drive itself is a little fucky. Okay, fine, I don't have any other big enough flash drives, so I'm going to burn a dvd like a pleb and plug it into my mobo. Oh, my board doesn't recognise the dvd player and the bios doesnt even SEE it. UGHHHH. Finally I give up and ask David if I can borrow a flash drive at the PPV
it had been a while since I had seen my wrestle pals for a wrestle PPV. It was really nice to see everyone again. TLC was pretty tame and lame. The ladder match between The New Day and The Revival was great and that was about it. I suppose Aleister Black's match was good, but not great. Everything else was boring tbh. Oh well.
Okay so I got that drive from David, and got linux on the flash drive and I was able to dual boot win 10 and ubuntu. YUS. The hardest part done. The rest of the night I transferred files and stuff and just got everything together.
On my old computer, I kept forcing old gnome2 or whatever instead of gnome 3 but i'm finally accepting change lol. The appearance changes really arent all that bad. It mostly was just hard to find settings and stuff. It looks very mac-esque which i don't exactly love, but I stopped caring about that ages ago. My browser doesnt crash every 5 minutes. Long live my new computer.
The only thing left is configuring DDR. Of course my dance pad control box broke. Idek HOW. But I ordered a new board. This happens, like, every 6 months it seems. Just crummy cheap boards. Oh well. That should come tomorrow where I can finally configure the dance pad and make sure it works and then i will 100% be done with the new computer and then I can just, like, yanno, play games and stuff.
Monday after work was the brewery holiday party. I felt like I had already done enough all weekend and I didn't exactly want to, but the holidays are only one time a year so I went. It was nice but I drank a lot. I at least ate a bunch too so I wasn't really hung over this morning. But I'm also just like, over socialized. I'd like to hide in my house all week pls/thx. I was thinking about going to drag bingo tomorrow but I just am gonna stay home.
Today I had silks. It was another sub teacher. I hope T is going okay. I really like her and she hadn't been feeling well lately.
Also today, I took a long lunch and drove up to get Skittles ashes. It was really hard and sad and I've cried a lot today. We got a clay paw print, a jar of her hair (it reminds me of her tail), a small jar of whiskers, her microchip, and then her ashes. Its all so sweet and lovingly put together. I am going to buy a tiny bottle and put her microchip in it. I'm glad we were able to keep it. I played with it all the time when petting her. Blue's is teeny tiny, I never feel it, but Skittles' was always so obvious. But its sad that her body is certainly gone now and all that's left is two tiny handfuls of ash. She has a wooden urn that is very pretty. I haven't thought of where i was even going to put her. I feel almost blindsided by this even though I knew it was coming. Right now I just have her on the kitchen counter. At least there I can keep burning candles when I want to sort of feel closer to her. And I can leave her offerings of french fries. I'd like a place on a shelf where I could keep doing that. Hopefully it'll come to me. Until then, I think the kitchen counter is okay. She liked food.
I thought about getting one of those necklaces of cremains but i decided the idea of separating herself from herself gives me a lot of anxiety. So I think I'll keep her together. I may make a necklace with her rabies tags. I've been keeping them on me a lot lately just to feel like she's near. I thought about making a necklace with her microchip but i was so anxious thinking what would happen if I lost it. So, no, I'll just get a jar to display it. The tags would be safe though.
Anyway, mostly its just final and sad and heavy. I miss her and love her and i miss her sleeping with me. I miss her yelling at me or demanding attention or stealing my seat. I just miss her so much.
Greif sucks.
Friday night Cecilia had a birthday thing a the brewery her husband works at. I came later in the evening and stayed for a few hours. It was really low key which was perfect because I've been easily over stimulated lately. So I had a beer and we caught up. I was only out till 9. I think that night Z and I just watched wrestling or avatar or something.
Saturday was much more busy. I had silks, as I do every saturday morning, which was a sub, but it was nice to learn some new sequences, or at least an older sequence I hadn't done in a while and, like, in a different order.
Afterward, I met Jay at my place. Okay, so my computer I'm working on... I couldn't get windows to boot from the flash drive no matter what I did. I tried other flash drives... I tried anything. Eventually I gave up and started just asking around. Jay had a drive with windows on it and it worked flawlessly. So yeah they let me borrow the drive, but as soon as I got the drive, instead of getting to work on my computer, I had to run some errands.
I ran to the eye place to drop off my un-used contacts to get them bought back (or credit or /something/). And then I ran to bookpeople to buy Z's xmas present. Z was still at his brewery, but I really didnt want a beer, so I headed to a craft fair my cousin was at. I bought some xmas presents from him too so I'm basically mostly squared away at this point. Z met me there but then we went together to /another/ brewery for Colt's birthday. A band was playing at the brewery that he really wanted to see. It was really loud so it was really hard to socialize. At least I had ear plugs but man it was really rough and honestly I was already exhausted and overstimulated. But it was only for a few hours and then we went home. It felt really good to be home that night.
Sunday I finally got to work on my computer. All day. And it was really nice to pour myself into it. Got Windows 10 installed. I have never used it and its a little wonky but not too hard as long as google can help lol. But the next part was fucking Linux. And fucking again, my flash drive is NOT working. wtf. But unlike wintows, at least it tells me the drive itself is a little fucky. Okay, fine, I don't have any other big enough flash drives, so I'm going to burn a dvd like a pleb and plug it into my mobo. Oh, my board doesn't recognise the dvd player and the bios doesnt even SEE it. UGHHHH. Finally I give up and ask David if I can borrow a flash drive at the PPV
it had been a while since I had seen my wrestle pals for a wrestle PPV. It was really nice to see everyone again. TLC was pretty tame and lame. The ladder match between The New Day and The Revival was great and that was about it. I suppose Aleister Black's match was good, but not great. Everything else was boring tbh. Oh well.
Okay so I got that drive from David, and got linux on the flash drive and I was able to dual boot win 10 and ubuntu. YUS. The hardest part done. The rest of the night I transferred files and stuff and just got everything together.
On my old computer, I kept forcing old gnome2 or whatever instead of gnome 3 but i'm finally accepting change lol. The appearance changes really arent all that bad. It mostly was just hard to find settings and stuff. It looks very mac-esque which i don't exactly love, but I stopped caring about that ages ago. My browser doesnt crash every 5 minutes. Long live my new computer.
The only thing left is configuring DDR. Of course my dance pad control box broke. Idek HOW. But I ordered a new board. This happens, like, every 6 months it seems. Just crummy cheap boards. Oh well. That should come tomorrow where I can finally configure the dance pad and make sure it works and then i will 100% be done with the new computer and then I can just, like, yanno, play games and stuff.
Monday after work was the brewery holiday party. I felt like I had already done enough all weekend and I didn't exactly want to, but the holidays are only one time a year so I went. It was nice but I drank a lot. I at least ate a bunch too so I wasn't really hung over this morning. But I'm also just like, over socialized. I'd like to hide in my house all week pls/thx. I was thinking about going to drag bingo tomorrow but I just am gonna stay home.
Today I had silks. It was another sub teacher. I hope T is going okay. I really like her and she hadn't been feeling well lately.
Also today, I took a long lunch and drove up to get Skittles ashes. It was really hard and sad and I've cried a lot today. We got a clay paw print, a jar of her hair (it reminds me of her tail), a small jar of whiskers, her microchip, and then her ashes. Its all so sweet and lovingly put together. I am going to buy a tiny bottle and put her microchip in it. I'm glad we were able to keep it. I played with it all the time when petting her. Blue's is teeny tiny, I never feel it, but Skittles' was always so obvious. But its sad that her body is certainly gone now and all that's left is two tiny handfuls of ash. She has a wooden urn that is very pretty. I haven't thought of where i was even going to put her. I feel almost blindsided by this even though I knew it was coming. Right now I just have her on the kitchen counter. At least there I can keep burning candles when I want to sort of feel closer to her. And I can leave her offerings of french fries. I'd like a place on a shelf where I could keep doing that. Hopefully it'll come to me. Until then, I think the kitchen counter is okay. She liked food.
I thought about getting one of those necklaces of cremains but i decided the idea of separating herself from herself gives me a lot of anxiety. So I think I'll keep her together. I may make a necklace with her rabies tags. I've been keeping them on me a lot lately just to feel like she's near. I thought about making a necklace with her microchip but i was so anxious thinking what would happen if I lost it. So, no, I'll just get a jar to display it. The tags would be safe though.
Anyway, mostly its just final and sad and heavy. I miss her and love her and i miss her sleeping with me. I miss her yelling at me or demanding attention or stealing my seat. I just miss her so much.
Greif sucks.
