what are you reading wednesday?

What have you finished reading?

Black Hammer '45 by Jeff Lemire (Author), Ray Fawkes (Author), Matt Kindt (Cover Art, Artist), Sharlene Kindt (Colorist) - I had some difficulty understanding how this all sort of fit in the Hammerverse. So its a group of POC WW2 soldiers that have to wave some folks, and there's sweet WW2 airplane battles and theres a fucking mech, but the squad is also called black hammer, and, like, is one of these dudes black hammer? i dont think so i'm p sure unless i wasnt paying attention. theyre just named after the hero i guess because theyre POC? i mean, I like killing nazis and old planes v mecha is something I didnt know I wanted, but I can't figure out how it fits in the bigger picture. Whatever I guess. There seems to be a lot of this in the Hammerverse.

Ascender Volume 1 by Jeff Lemire (Author), Dustin Nguyen (Artist) - So this is the sequel to decender. Its 10 years in the future, and everything is ruled by magic as opposed to machinery. Andy has a kid and the kid finds Andy's old robot dog, but the tech is forbidden and they try to get off planet to not get caught. This really grabbed me and the world is really fleshed out. I can't wait for the next trade.

What are you currently reading?

A Dance with Dragons by George R R Martin - I think I only read two other chapters. One for Theon, who is thinking of actually trying to escape, although his PTSD is really telling him he probably shouldnt. and one for Tyrion who is still on a boat headed to Dany and theres another dwarf, and its interesting to see their interactions, but I feel like its only dragging on so Tyrion can conveniently wind up with Dany right at the end of the book.

Cucumber Quest: The Flower Kingdom by Gigi D.G. (Author) - Here's the lighthearted story I've wanted thus far. Cucumber is off to the Flower Kingdom to get the princess' help, but, *gasp*, they have no princess/king/queen, which, I'm glad the revolution has come to the flower kingdom lol. They decide that the King of Fashion is the closest thing they have to a King, and theyre about to crown a fashion contest winner which would make the winner close enough to the princess they guess. The villain is trans which is p cool and unexpected.

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Hey.

I'm...im kind of shitty but hanging in there. Trying to find the balance of feeling it, but not wallowing in it.

Monday, after we dropped her off, I stayed home while Z did some brewing networking. I watched Howl's Moving Castle, which was p good. I just felt p hollow and couldn't focus so it was nice to watch a movie i guess.

I didnt sob yesterday. Which is neat. I cried still but didnt bawl. I still miss Skittles. Today I expected her to be in my chair. She always stole my seat as soon as I get up. I got a condolences card from the vet who put her down. that card made me cry a whole bunch. I just miss her being around and petting her, and her rubbing herself all over the corners of my glasses.

Blue still has been extra sweet. He has slept with us two nights in a row. he sat on my lap once, which he has never done (he only likes to sit on chests).

Still whenever Blue jumps I worry about his joints. I have tiny stairs and I wish he would just take them. I know I'm just projecting. Also, I wish he were more like Skittles? I know this is so stupid. Blue is blue and Skittles was skittles. But I tried getting him to hang out in the box by the computer... no dice. He'll lay on the file box though, so at least he is near.

I went to silks yesterday and it went ok and I feel like i'm getting stronger. everyone has been nice to me.

i've just been trying to get things together and stuff. I have just all these presents i need to wrap. i have a few more i need to get. i need to not sink too low. I need to feel okay. i dont feel okay. maybe i dont need to feel okay.

I just miss her. im glad i have blue here though.

tonight, i was gonna go out but kirt and justin had to cancel as kirt has a funeral to go to. goodness. that sucks. i guess i'll mostly clean tonight. maybe look at my computer build and see what i have.

sorry this entry is all over the place.