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Feb. 11th, 2020 05:28 pmI keep checking basically all social media frantically thinking that something more has gone bad.
I dont know what i last wrote. I got a hold of Lara's boyfriend's mom who got me Lara's mom's info. We've talked on the phone a few times.
It was medical. The autopsy was yesterday and said pneumonia was the cause of death. She had battled a flesh eating bacteria which gave her a fucked up leg, and had fibromyalgia, so .. like on one hand, according to the family, she didnt seem like she had pneumonia. Maybe the flu, but not that. On the other hand, shes been in pain for so long, maybe she can't be in tune with any other symptoms.
She was not alone when she passed. Her BF was there. Said she was relatively delusional, saying strange things. Said she heard her (deceased) father, said some other weird stuff, and then couldn't breathe. Her boyfriend tried to revive her but was unsuccessful.
Lara's dad died almost exactly a year ago on 2/4. She died on the 8th i believe. I feel so bad for her mom and I feel so bad for her boyfriend too. It was just completely out of left field. Like she obviously had all the medical stuff, but it, like, I didn't think she would just be fucking dying.
I am flying home Thursday and I am so sad. I kept saying I visited and now I am visiting and i dont even get to see her. Its fucking bullshit and i dont like it. I am staying till March 7th. I think I will be in Racine a week and a half, Milwaukee for about a half week, and the last week in Chicago.
I am spending so much time because I have been so fucking homesick since Skittles died. So I might as well get it all out of my system if Im making this trip anyway. I want to hug my mom and I want to maybe visit my spooky dad-skeleton and just maybe go sledding and see the lake frozen.
shit fuckin sucks yall.
i know death is the price we pay for loving others. death is inevitable. but i feel like ive experienced a disproportional amount at 33 and i would like to get off mr bones wild ride now.
I dont know what i last wrote. I got a hold of Lara's boyfriend's mom who got me Lara's mom's info. We've talked on the phone a few times.
It was medical. The autopsy was yesterday and said pneumonia was the cause of death. She had battled a flesh eating bacteria which gave her a fucked up leg, and had fibromyalgia, so .. like on one hand, according to the family, she didnt seem like she had pneumonia. Maybe the flu, but not that. On the other hand, shes been in pain for so long, maybe she can't be in tune with any other symptoms.
She was not alone when she passed. Her BF was there. Said she was relatively delusional, saying strange things. Said she heard her (deceased) father, said some other weird stuff, and then couldn't breathe. Her boyfriend tried to revive her but was unsuccessful.
Lara's dad died almost exactly a year ago on 2/4. She died on the 8th i believe. I feel so bad for her mom and I feel so bad for her boyfriend too. It was just completely out of left field. Like she obviously had all the medical stuff, but it, like, I didn't think she would just be fucking dying.
I am flying home Thursday and I am so sad. I kept saying I visited and now I am visiting and i dont even get to see her. Its fucking bullshit and i dont like it. I am staying till March 7th. I think I will be in Racine a week and a half, Milwaukee for about a half week, and the last week in Chicago.
I am spending so much time because I have been so fucking homesick since Skittles died. So I might as well get it all out of my system if Im making this trip anyway. I want to hug my mom and I want to maybe visit my spooky dad-skeleton and just maybe go sledding and see the lake frozen.
shit fuckin sucks yall.
i know death is the price we pay for loving others. death is inevitable. but i feel like ive experienced a disproportional amount at 33 and i would like to get off mr bones wild ride now.
