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im still trying to figure out my schedule for updating DW with Zs new schedule. thanks for the patience, etc.
New years eve wound up being low key but good. We did a bonfire at mike and Jays, had some beers, made fun of the TV, and we went home around 2.
New years day we did absolutely nothing. Caught up on watching stuff, but we pretty much just played video games all day. Oh we did go to the alamo drafthouse downtown and watch 2001 a space odyssey. That was p good.
After that work has been weird. its that weird lul of not knowing what day it is. Normally I prefer not having so much routine, but I'm super over the holidays, especially this year, and I'm ready for the routine.
I realised that Z and Is finances are actually pretty crummy. Between Skittles dying and XMas presents, we've really eaten into our savings. I need to spend less. For real.
Friday night was Coreys birthday, so we went out to a Japanese place which was p good. I think he wanted to do karaoke afterwards but none of us were enthusiastic (or drunk) enough so we went to the brewery instead. It was a pretty good night. At the end of the night Mike and Jay popped by and we talked about how much we disliked the new star wars movie.
Saturday after silks, we met up with David and Marisol to exchange presents at a mexican place called fresas. It was pretty good. We got some books, electronic hockey, and some other stuff. After that Z and I were just home to watch playoff football. There were some great games saturday
Today thats p much all I did too. I just watched football. After that I played video games. I've been reading a bit too.
i feel like ive done stuff, but mostly nothing. but thats also okay. my brain has been adequately distracted all week and almost ignoring my grief. but its nice to have a break. its one month today. time flies i guess.
ive been eating junk all weekend though which i need to not do.
idk im okay but not great. just fine, i guess. sufficient? i dont expect myself to be happy but i dont want to be sad forever and distracting myself forever. oh and the world is scary. funny how everything is falling apart in the world, but itll start to feel a little more normal, and then you look up and realize an entire continent is on fire and im sure hundreds of people have died.
i've felt very powerless lately. powerless to stop a potential war. powerless to stop climate change. powerless in general. i dont know what the answer is or isnt. this is why we're all going to die. Because instead of banding together and... idk taking down the oil companies or something... we're just sitting here gawking and thinking it cant get worse as it constantly gets worse.
sorry, i guess i've been in a mood lately. lol
New years eve wound up being low key but good. We did a bonfire at mike and Jays, had some beers, made fun of the TV, and we went home around 2.
New years day we did absolutely nothing. Caught up on watching stuff, but we pretty much just played video games all day. Oh we did go to the alamo drafthouse downtown and watch 2001 a space odyssey. That was p good.
After that work has been weird. its that weird lul of not knowing what day it is. Normally I prefer not having so much routine, but I'm super over the holidays, especially this year, and I'm ready for the routine.
I realised that Z and Is finances are actually pretty crummy. Between Skittles dying and XMas presents, we've really eaten into our savings. I need to spend less. For real.
Friday night was Coreys birthday, so we went out to a Japanese place which was p good. I think he wanted to do karaoke afterwards but none of us were enthusiastic (or drunk) enough so we went to the brewery instead. It was a pretty good night. At the end of the night Mike and Jay popped by and we talked about how much we disliked the new star wars movie.
Saturday after silks, we met up with David and Marisol to exchange presents at a mexican place called fresas. It was pretty good. We got some books, electronic hockey, and some other stuff. After that Z and I were just home to watch playoff football. There were some great games saturday
Today thats p much all I did too. I just watched football. After that I played video games. I've been reading a bit too.
i feel like ive done stuff, but mostly nothing. but thats also okay. my brain has been adequately distracted all week and almost ignoring my grief. but its nice to have a break. its one month today. time flies i guess.
ive been eating junk all weekend though which i need to not do.
idk im okay but not great. just fine, i guess. sufficient? i dont expect myself to be happy but i dont want to be sad forever and distracting myself forever. oh and the world is scary. funny how everything is falling apart in the world, but itll start to feel a little more normal, and then you look up and realize an entire continent is on fire and im sure hundreds of people have died.
i've felt very powerless lately. powerless to stop a potential war. powerless to stop climate change. powerless in general. i dont know what the answer is or isnt. this is why we're all going to die. Because instead of banding together and... idk taking down the oil companies or something... we're just sitting here gawking and thinking it cant get worse as it constantly gets worse.
sorry, i guess i've been in a mood lately. lol
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Date: 2020-01-06 07:55 pm (UTC)From:Maybe the internet is the collective suicide-machine.
I wish I could avoid the internet sometimes. It's so hard. That dopamine hit, that both draws you in, while at the same time, making you feel more "connected" (to the world at large) and yet we're ever increasingly disconnected.
Honestly I think you're doing the right thing, local, honest to god friends IRL connections. That's all we can ultimately do at this point. I've lost faith in activism. Or maybe I'm just being lazy. I feel like we can't have a revolution and any changes at this stage are minor compared to what's necessary and anyone with the power to affect things at the level they need to will ultimately be self-serving and corrupt.
I just wish Jesus would hurry the fuck up already and take them all away.
Ugh Saving money...
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Date: 2020-01-06 11:50 pm (UTC)From: