love in the time of corona

[frenzy]

Wow a lot has changed in a short period of time.

I was scoffing at gloves by the mail, but my friend in seattle has already been doing this. I rolled my eyes and my gym asking me to refrain from coming for 2 weeks since I had been travelling and look at everything that has cancelled

no NBA playoffs! no NHL playoffs! No March Madness! What a terrible time to be a fan of sports.

And i keep wondering when/if they're cancelling wrestlemania. I saw Smackdown won't be in a town/arena, but instead will be at the WWE performance center. Wow.

I didnt sleep well last night because i stayed up just wondering what the next bomb will be. what will close. what should i do.

hell, today my cousin asked me to help with the gay shop and i said unless he urgently needed my help, it would be safer that i dont in case i am a carrying and am not showing symptoms yet. maybe i am worrying too much??

but i am worrying too much if it is affecting my sleep. i need to put a stop on screens/media at some point so that i dont just stay up. if anything bad happens, i can read about it in the morning. im just consuming endless fear before i try to lay down.

im mostly just scared and i dont like it. normally im pretty immune to the whole fear agenda, but this isnt the traditional amount of fear that companies try to inject us with. this is real scientists and stuff. and italy. oh my god. its so scary. that would be us in a few weeks.

i hope it dies down eventually/soon

im such an extravert so this is all frustrating. by the time my quarantine is up from the gym, maybe the gym will be closed! ugh! and like idk. i wanna do stuff. hell, i might not even go to the movies tomorrow even though i want to see the new pixar movie :\

idk. this entry is all over the place, im just kind of scared, and i think rightfully so, but also just frustrated that its happening. and the fear is kind of encompassing but i wish it wasnt.

Comments

[symbioid]

Sorry not sorry but...

"...i hope it dies down eventually/soon..."

I see what you did there. ;)

I am now not so great, but for about 3-4 hours this afternoon I felt... oddly liberated in the nihilistic freedom way of "THE FUTURE IS OPEN - RULES ARE ABANDONED THIS WORLD IS NOW OURS TO CONQUER"

...

My work won't let us work from home I bet, they can barely get it so we work from work.

I guess I can't say I can related since this is "normal" in terms of my intro/extra-version...

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But it is weird. IDEK what i should be feeling. I wish we could Carpe Diem this shit but... IDK.

I wish we could all afford to take time off and not worry about it. Though I know for you it's the anxiety of not being able to be social.

On the other hand - well - in Italy people are being stuck in their home with their deceased while nobody's picking up the bodies so I guess it could be worse?

Not to feed your anxieties. IDK. man. IDK anymore.