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Hi. My depression has been very, very bad. I couldn't tell you why. It might actually be anxiety. I guess it probably is both. I keep beating myself up over tiny things, assuming everyone hates me, hating myself... I'm just having a really rough time. I cant seem to escape my brain; its louder than usual.
And, like, trump lost so I should be happy.
Social media has been exceptionally grating lately. I used to be a christian, and I've only kept friends that aren't complete right-wing shitlords. Anyway, it seems like any vaguely left-leaning christian being happy that trump lost has brought the absolute worst people out of the woodwork in the comments. (most) Christians are so delusional at this point. The only real christian arguments i could find was 1) abortion and 2) claiming biden is satan or the anti-christ somehow.
Y'all, I have never been more fucking proud to be an atheist. I hate christians and what it has become. Jesus seemed to be a relatively okay guy, although i dont believe in his divinity. These chodes haven't read a single thing jesus ever said.
I just keep seeing this rhetoric, specifically on facebook, and I keep clicking on it, even though I know what I'm going to see. Maybe a part of me is disappointed in what modern christianity has become. Religion doesn't have to be this way. But it is. Whatever. I guess I'm mostly just happy to not even have to worry about the conflict. It makes me want to come fully out as an atheist because i've never been gladder to not believe in god.
Slightly deviating from my original point here, but I have a bit of a conspiracy theory i've conjured up and I'm pretty convinced its true. Republicans dont actually care about abortion. They've had the majority, and they never do anything about it. If they did, they would lose a huge voting base, since a lot of christian folks are single issue abortion voters. what do y'all think? They just keep dangling the carrot but never actually giving it to them.
No good segue to go from that to my last thought. But man, I am fuckin bummed about Alex Trebek. My dad died when I was 15. But some of the sparse, good memories I have are of my dad and quiz shows. My dad knew damn never every answer on jeopardy. He'd pass their tests, but he'd never make the final cut. So, when I'm sad or missing him, I'd have jeopardy to watch and enjoy and think of my dad. So in a weird way, Trebek became bootleg quiz show dad. And now he's dead too. I knew his health was poor, and I knew he was older and no one lives forever. But its like, one of a handful of 'celebrity deaths' that have stung. Parasocial relationships are strange. I'll miss quiz dad.
And, like, trump lost so I should be happy.
Social media has been exceptionally grating lately. I used to be a christian, and I've only kept friends that aren't complete right-wing shitlords. Anyway, it seems like any vaguely left-leaning christian being happy that trump lost has brought the absolute worst people out of the woodwork in the comments. (most) Christians are so delusional at this point. The only real christian arguments i could find was 1) abortion and 2) claiming biden is satan or the anti-christ somehow.
Y'all, I have never been more fucking proud to be an atheist. I hate christians and what it has become. Jesus seemed to be a relatively okay guy, although i dont believe in his divinity. These chodes haven't read a single thing jesus ever said.
I just keep seeing this rhetoric, specifically on facebook, and I keep clicking on it, even though I know what I'm going to see. Maybe a part of me is disappointed in what modern christianity has become. Religion doesn't have to be this way. But it is. Whatever. I guess I'm mostly just happy to not even have to worry about the conflict. It makes me want to come fully out as an atheist because i've never been gladder to not believe in god.
Slightly deviating from my original point here, but I have a bit of a conspiracy theory i've conjured up and I'm pretty convinced its true. Republicans dont actually care about abortion. They've had the majority, and they never do anything about it. If they did, they would lose a huge voting base, since a lot of christian folks are single issue abortion voters. what do y'all think? They just keep dangling the carrot but never actually giving it to them.
No good segue to go from that to my last thought. But man, I am fuckin bummed about Alex Trebek. My dad died when I was 15. But some of the sparse, good memories I have are of my dad and quiz shows. My dad knew damn never every answer on jeopardy. He'd pass their tests, but he'd never make the final cut. So, when I'm sad or missing him, I'd have jeopardy to watch and enjoy and think of my dad. So in a weird way, Trebek became bootleg quiz show dad. And now he's dead too. I knew his health was poor, and I knew he was older and no one lives forever. But its like, one of a handful of 'celebrity deaths' that have stung. Parasocial relationships are strange. I'll miss quiz dad.
