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Oct. 17th, 2019 02:54 pmThis has been a week
I mean in theory its been fine.
today i got my flu shot. first time probably since i was 18. the anti vaxxers have done one good thing, they made ppl who are educated about vaccines speak more. i used to think you'd get the flu shot for yourself. and im like 'well i dont mind being sick'. but actually, you should get the flu shot for everyone around you, esp. immunocompromised people. so here i am. but now im sore and im kinda cranky about it.
At any rate, on Friday Z randomly got off work. We decided to go out on a date together. It had been several weeks since we'd done anything resembling a date, so it was really nice. We went to a new brewery. It was fine. like the beers were whatever but just spending quality time together is really nice.
Saturday I hung out with Sabrina. It had been a while since I'd seen them. We got italian food and went to the comic shop and i bought a bunch of comics because this is just who i am. i am a flawed person. I also got a blind box of persian cats and got one that looks like blue and i love it. its like a little blue action figure.
Sunday I ran around mostly checking out the last half price books before I ordered some more comics from the comic shop. I'm making a point to stop buying comics on amazon and start supporting my local comic shop. After all that we went to the brewery to watch the cowboys game which it was p lolsy to watch the cowboys lose to the freakin jets.
Its been a busy week. I got new glasses. I tried out zenni, which i hadnt done because... idk why... but yeah i got glow in the dark glasses because im a toddler. Theyre great!
landon and tessa have been in town so i hung out with landon last night.
i got a massage at one point too which was nice. I've been carrying a lot of stress.
But the biggest stress of all this week was related to Skittles. She is my older cat. Shes 17 and she had her annual check up. They ran some blood work and stuff came back weird. High white blood cell count and what looked to be pre diabetic or maybe kidney issues. They wanted her back the next day to do more tests.
I basically panicked a lot. i kept fearing it was the worse. skittles is definitely slowing down and i really dont know how much longer i have with her, but i am p certain its less than a year.
so i dropped her off the next day for half the day. they did a urine test and it turns out things arent so bad. basically she's almost diabetic but they just want to get her off one steroid and onto another that'll be kinder to her. also adding a bunch of supplements as well as an appetite stimulant because little lady is only 4.25lbs right now :(
I was actually gonna make a long post here about how worried i was about her mortality but now i am feeling much better and infinitely more hopeful.
that said i did get some referrals for at home euthanasia. for when the time comes. but mostly because i want to be prepared /before/ her time comes. because when skittles' time does come, it will wreck me and i want to make 0 decisions and just grieve.
ive only had her for 7 of her 17 years. i knew i was adopting an old cat when i adopted her. When I first got her, my life was a mess. i was a mess. i was anxious. i had tons of weird PTSD stuff. i was with a terrible person. i had a terrible job. i didnt feel like myself. i was so depressed.
skittles healed me. and helped me be myself again. she has done so much for me and i owe her so much.
my entire life is much better and a lot of thanks goes to her. now, as her life winds down, i know it means her job is done. but its still very sad.
but im grateful, so so grateful the tests werent that bad and i dont need to get so nostalgic. i hope shes around another 6 months or so. maybe even longer if things get better for her.
for now im just exhausted. panicking took a lot out of me.
I mean in theory its been fine.
today i got my flu shot. first time probably since i was 18. the anti vaxxers have done one good thing, they made ppl who are educated about vaccines speak more. i used to think you'd get the flu shot for yourself. and im like 'well i dont mind being sick'. but actually, you should get the flu shot for everyone around you, esp. immunocompromised people. so here i am. but now im sore and im kinda cranky about it.
At any rate, on Friday Z randomly got off work. We decided to go out on a date together. It had been several weeks since we'd done anything resembling a date, so it was really nice. We went to a new brewery. It was fine. like the beers were whatever but just spending quality time together is really nice.
Saturday I hung out with Sabrina. It had been a while since I'd seen them. We got italian food and went to the comic shop and i bought a bunch of comics because this is just who i am. i am a flawed person. I also got a blind box of persian cats and got one that looks like blue and i love it. its like a little blue action figure.
Sunday I ran around mostly checking out the last half price books before I ordered some more comics from the comic shop. I'm making a point to stop buying comics on amazon and start supporting my local comic shop. After all that we went to the brewery to watch the cowboys game which it was p lolsy to watch the cowboys lose to the freakin jets.
Its been a busy week. I got new glasses. I tried out zenni, which i hadnt done because... idk why... but yeah i got glow in the dark glasses because im a toddler. Theyre great!
landon and tessa have been in town so i hung out with landon last night.
i got a massage at one point too which was nice. I've been carrying a lot of stress.
But the biggest stress of all this week was related to Skittles. She is my older cat. Shes 17 and she had her annual check up. They ran some blood work and stuff came back weird. High white blood cell count and what looked to be pre diabetic or maybe kidney issues. They wanted her back the next day to do more tests.
I basically panicked a lot. i kept fearing it was the worse. skittles is definitely slowing down and i really dont know how much longer i have with her, but i am p certain its less than a year.
so i dropped her off the next day for half the day. they did a urine test and it turns out things arent so bad. basically she's almost diabetic but they just want to get her off one steroid and onto another that'll be kinder to her. also adding a bunch of supplements as well as an appetite stimulant because little lady is only 4.25lbs right now :(
I was actually gonna make a long post here about how worried i was about her mortality but now i am feeling much better and infinitely more hopeful.
that said i did get some referrals for at home euthanasia. for when the time comes. but mostly because i want to be prepared /before/ her time comes. because when skittles' time does come, it will wreck me and i want to make 0 decisions and just grieve.
ive only had her for 7 of her 17 years. i knew i was adopting an old cat when i adopted her. When I first got her, my life was a mess. i was a mess. i was anxious. i had tons of weird PTSD stuff. i was with a terrible person. i had a terrible job. i didnt feel like myself. i was so depressed.
skittles healed me. and helped me be myself again. she has done so much for me and i owe her so much.
my entire life is much better and a lot of thanks goes to her. now, as her life winds down, i know it means her job is done. but its still very sad.
but im grateful, so so grateful the tests werent that bad and i dont need to get so nostalgic. i hope shes around another 6 months or so. maybe even longer if things get better for her.
for now im just exhausted. panicking took a lot out of me.
