what are you reading wednesday?

What have you finished reading?

nothin

What are you currently reading?

Fermat's Enigma by Simon Singh - We talk about the history of mathematics, pythagoras and achemedies. lost a lot of math in the loss of alexandra and the sacking of constantinople. Then Fermat comes across some old math books and, this guy isnt a professional, but makes a ton of theorems. but fermat never shows his work (math teachers hate him!). all of his theorems have proofs now, its just this "fermats theorem" that doesnt have a proof centuries later. some people make some progress on it, but a mathematician proves its impossible and it has no movement for a long time. then a century later, another mathematician proves the person who said it was impossible had a flaw in their logic, so people are trying to figure it out again. someone offers the equivalent of a million dollars if they can prove it (and 0$ if they can prove its unsolvable lol)

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Im going to start with my entry, but then Im going to sort of dive into a bit of paranoia. Ill warn you when it happens, but im all worried about corona, so maybe skip over that part if you want.

This weekend didnt have much. I did go out to see Debbie. We didnt hug or anything and we kept apart. im worried i should have maybe worn my mask more, but i also worry about everything. I did pet the dogs. I can't not pet dogs, especially good dogs like her dogs. It was nice to hang out and we had a good time.

I've been home since. I was nervous about seeing debbie, and kept wondering if every little thing could be a sign of the corona.

ok i start diving in deep here. nothing else important to read.

so i've been SLEEPY lately. Remember after i got hit by the bus, I couldnt sleep at all? well now im sleeping 10, 11, 12 hours a day. At first it was like, okay, maybe this is catch up, but y'all i am so fatigued. Ive been feeling this way since this weekend.

Well, ok, monday, my batteries come in for my thermometer! this will make me calm down! Ope. Its not a battery issue! my thermometer is broke. I buy a new one on ebay, but im going to have to wait a while.

im conjested all monday and tuesday. today too. monday i felt like either i had bad allergies or i might have something. but i started allergy pills and i feel a little better.

but what if im getting something? should i not pet the cats? should i not sleep with Z? what should i do?

I have a friend with a confirmed case too. she survived thankfully, but hers started off the same way. thought it was allergies. started to get a slight fever but not too much so who knows... then bam. needing an inhaler, nebulizer, etc. what if i die? i could die.

ok ok reel it in. all it is is that i am sleepy and i might have allergies. i literally have no symptoms of being sick

BUT THIS IS HOW IT STARTS

i might just be worried for no reason again.

But when could I have been exposed? The car accident was over 2 weeks ago. i was exposed to several people then, including folks who ride the bus. after i was in the accident i was rattled and i wasnt wearing my mask.

I went ot the state park. so stupid. i thought being in nature would be safe as long as people stayed apart and wore masks near each other. but no one did that. and i touched the railing because its a steep drop to the waterfall. itll be 2 weeks ago on saturday. that would be wild and accurate. god ill be so mad at myself if i get sick and die from that.

look look look. no one is dying. even if you get sick. you have survived so many so so many sicknesses, some pretty gnarly. you have a great immune system. you'll be fine.

another sign i might be sick is i can't seem to regulate my body temperature. Oh and there is no hot shower too hot for me right now. and im r a v e n o u s l y hungry. none of these are sure fire ways im sick though

i hope its nothing, but if it isnt nothing, i figured i should start writing it all down. god i am so worried.